So I have made some choices recently, these choices are in regards to who I do and do not have in my life. I have received a lot of criticism for it, apparently I am making peoples life miserable, I am the bad guy, and it is my fault for all the problems in their life. Did anyone ask me what it was like in my life to almost loose my job and almost have my kids taken away because of accusations against me that were not true.... NO. Did anyone ask me how i felt having to always jump through hoops while all of my moves were watched.... NO. And yet even after all of this i am still the bad guy and i am the one that is being unreasonable. These are the reasons that i choose to cut someone from my life, i am so tired of being stabbed in the back and hurt over and over again. I am so tired of having to watch my back cause i dont know when my life could be turned upside down again. I am tired of feeling panic everytime they are around my kids cause i dont know if they will turn a bump on the head into something more than it is. If protecting my self and my sanity makes me a horrible person then so be it, i guess i am horrible, thats what happens when you f*** with my family. I will do whatever i have to do to protect my children and to protect my self. They say they miss me but in all the months no one said anything to me directly just to everyone around me, and it was always about how mean or unfair i was being. they even had the nerve to go to my better half and try to play the victim card. Not only that, they went behind my back, to my ex and told him how sorry they were for all that i was putting him through when i left, and how i was an unfit mother. So you wonder why i cut them out of my life this is a brief story of why. I will continue to live my life with out them in it, i am better off. Things will not change cause they already have and it was for the better. Am i happy with my decision, i can completely say yes 100%. I fell like i have plenty of friends in my life that all their love makes up for what was lost. I am not sorry if i offend anyone with this, these are my thoughts, people want to criticize and judge me like i am a bad person, well last time i checked no one asked what kind of hell i went through and how i felt.
so in short if you want to make judgements that is fine but make sure you have both sides of the story because even if you dont ask my life will go on as is and i will keep my sanity......... thats all.
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